I walked away from Lillypie in March. Can you believe its already been 7 months?! I knew that it was the right decision because of the flooding of peace I felt when I came to my decision. I wrote about it HERE if you'd like to read. You know what, I don't miss it. Let me be clear, I DO miss the income. That was such a blessing. I DO miss the connections and relationships built with my customers. I don't miss the long hours. I don't miss the late nights. and weirdly enough I don't miss the creating.
How can something that defined me for so long not be missed?
The answer is because I've grown as a person. I'm learning to not define myself by hobbies, interests, or even my family. I'm learning to define myself and someone who is LOVED by God and made in his image.
So while Lillypie was ME for 3 years---it's not anymore. I'm so much more.
It's easy to put yourself inside of a find of "this is who I am." Did you not spend most of your twenties trying to find out who you were? ohhhh Phewy, I sure did. I wanted to fit in a mold. I knew I was creative. I knew I was artistic. I knew I was emotion-led. I knew I was outgoing. So by golly I tried to put myself in one of those categories at all times. Looking back I can see how important it was for me to find out WHO I WAS. But now, I feel more of a tug to define myself by to WHOM I BELONG.
He created me. He knit me. He has a purpose for me----and you know what? That's fricken amazing. He also did that for you. YOU. Don't allow yourself to be defined by things, character traits, or even people. While amazing and life giving---they aren't the entire you. All those THINGS can be stripped from you in a moment. Ohhhh how that scares me--you too right?! Ack! Stop thinking about it Laura.
Okay. So with all this thinking I've been doing I've decided to revamp and improve this blog. This blog has always evolved with me. Take a trip down memory lane?
((I've linked these words to my favorite post from that "stage" if you'd like to click back and read my previous posts.))
First it was a pregnancy journal called Oh, Baby
Then it was a mommy blog with the name of LillyLoves
After a few months I announced my struggles with post partum depression ( that was so scary!) and I changed the name to The Big Cursive L.
I got healthier and really started to be inspired by women around me who were starting their own businesses.
I had my I CAN DO THIS TOO moment and started to dabble in a handmade business called Lillypie and then changed the name to Lillypie.
The next few years I went back and forth between blogging about my life, handmade business, parenthood, and following pregnancy.
Right now? I'm trying to lose weight. I'm trying to treat my body better. I'm coming into my own and getting healthy---after years of putting my body through hell and blaming others for my pain.
Lillypie doesn't define who I am anymore so it's time to change again.
I'm changing my blog name for the fourth time to:
I'm sharing it with you. I'm so glad you're choosing to listen. I'd love to swap stories with you.
My new url will be: www.lovelaurabeth.blogspot.com
My new IG name is ; love_laurabeth
Twitter: love_laurabeth
Come back Monday and see the new look! :)
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